Thursday, December 05, 2013 06:42 PM (Less than a month old)
So this... "story" is something I just recently found. It's from way, way, WAY back in my high school days, I think. Should you manage to guess who wrote it, and for whom it was written, I will buy you a brand new gold watch (as long as you pay for it). I have intentionally left the slight grammar mistakes/typos for... historical value. Or something.
What do you call it when a certain man fills all his free time with thoughts of a certain woman? He longs to be with her when they are apart, and wish they could be together forever when she is near to him. Chaos fills his thoughts and emotions when they are apart, but that certain woman soothes the disorder with her presence, her aura, her laugh, her very breath.
What do you call it when a certain man sees a certain woman in the place of movie stars, of models, even in the place of strangers? He sees a beautiful woman on the street and is reminded of that certain woman. A model in exotic lingerie, a movie star in a beautiful dress, even a strange lady in pants and a shirt become that certain woman, and they are together again, if for but a moment in time.
What do you call it when a certain man longs for his relationship with a certain woman to grow into something more? He wonders if he is obsessed, but his fears are elated by the insight of his closest advisors. He wonders if it is nothing more than a simple crush, but knows that, if it is, it could be much more.
This certain man has been close to asking the hellish question that dwells in the bowels of his soul, but has instead been crushed by the news of another's relation with her. Everyone close to him knows the relationship is right for both of them, yet he fears a loss of trust if it should go awry. He knows he could be everything that certain woman needs, but wonders if she would ever give him the chance to prove it.
And as each new boyfriend pulls closer to the heart of that certain woman before inevitably breaking it, that certain man pulls farther and farther away. He feels that a wonderful chance has been set before him and is ruluctant to let it slip away, but that certain woman continuously gives him mixed signals. Maybe she is hiding her own feelings, and feels the same way for this man. But it seems she is pushing him away, and it seems the pushes are getting stronger and stronger with time. This man wonders how long he can hold onto her before he must let go...
He wonders if this is the right thing to do. He wants to ask her, but has too much to lose from a rejection. He knows, deep in his heart, that she will figure ou tthe riddle of this certain man's identity. The clues are there if she looks close enough. If her feeling are the same, her heart will be her guide to this certain man who awaits her approach at the end of the lighted tunnel of her dreams.
Monday, November 04, 2013 06:08 PM (Updated last month)
For those of you paying attention, I mentioned that there are impending changes to CrazedSanity.com. You may have also noticed that there has been a slight change (or maybe it looks like a major one).
In the previous post, I mentioned some changes in the site's focus. Those changes are still coming, but there are a few backend changes that need to happen first, which I'm still working on. So stay tuned!
Monday, September 16, 2013 10:41 PM (Updated 3 months ago)
Earlier this year, I posted a message about my goal: I want to run a business or entity (or whatever) where developers come when THEY want to build stuff. It's paraphrasing a bit, but that's because I worded things in that post a little strangely. But what has been holding me back? Is it my code, or... what?
Back in the day, when I open-sourced a bunch of my code, I had to make some arbitrary decisions regarding licensing. I didn't know how I should license these libraries, or how I was going to use them, I just knew they needed to get out into the light of day. At the time, it seemed like the best licensing scheme was to go with the GNU Public License (or "GPL").
To be honest, I haven't really thought about that decision much for many, many years, until just recently. At work, I've been working with a new client to build an application for them. Suffice it to say, it was determined that this particular application would be a PHP-based web application. I was very excited, as I very much love to build web applications in PHP... that's when it hit me.
We talked about some implementation concerns, about implementing frameworks, when Darkman revealed that we wouldn't be able to use frameworks that were GPL'ed (that is, licensed under the GNU Public License). I realized immediately that this meant I couldn't use my own code the way it was, and we agreed to use CakePHP... and that my libraries would probably never be used for any commercial application if they remained under the GPL.
During the course of reading about CakePHP, I realized that it was their licensing that lead to such seemingly wide-spread adoption: they used the MIT license. It's a very open license, which allows it to be used for commercial applications without having to be open sourced themselves.
And finally we get to the point: I've dual-licensed my core libraries/frameworks: both under the GPL and MIT licenses. That means they can be used in commercial applications and wider adoption.
Without further ado, here are the libraries and the corresponding versions that have been dual-licensed (more will be updated in the future):
Today for me is the start of a new year. Going with the original Roman calendar March is the first month of Spring and therefore the first month of the New Year. Today is also my birthday so it is the start of another year of existence for me.
I have been afk for about 8 months now. I suffered from a number of losses of friends and family last year and basically closed myself off from everybody. I did some major thinking and made some life altering choices. I took a new job and moved myself and my family across the state. I'm finally getting settled in and I'm much happier with my new job and being much closer to friends and family. Unfortunately during low period last year I quit working towards my weight loss goals and actually packed on quite a few pounds.
I am happy to report that I will again be working towards my goals and blogging about them.
After some suggestions from friends, I've decided to start posting an "audio blog" about my story, "The Guardian Legend" (or :"Legend of the Guardian", or various derivatives). It's still under development, as I try to refine my writing style.
I started recording the first chapter. After some irritations of dealing with Audacity (my audio recording software), I found out some things about it (the story). First, while the heart of the story is undoubtedly good (at least that's what others have said after reading), it's... well, lacking. As soon as I start reading it out loud, I find it lacking something. The words jumble together, and it sorta feels... like a "B" movie.
Not a BAD "B" movie, but one that has potential. Like it's lacking good special effects... instead of seeing an awe-inspiring helm of a next-generation spaceship, you see a really tiny corner of it, where a great actor is using something that vaguely looks like one of the computer panels from NASA, back when they launched Apollo 13.
Anyway, I have to figure some way of writing my story so it's entertaining. The underlying actions are interesting, the idea of what's happening is good... but the way it's written is just... well, it's bad. I can tell that some of the writing is a few decades old. Yuck.
So how do I write it? Somehow, I've gotta find a writing style that matches how I tell stories. As I remember it, people reading the story weren't as thrilled as the people that I told the story. Because I really get into it when I'm telling the story, but somehow that just gets lost in the written part... ugh.
Anyway, this entry is just an appetizer. I'm working on the audio blog, but there's a bit of work left to do. Stay tuned!